For some reason as I sit here just dead, I decided to look up why I am always so tired, why I have a hard time just falling asleep at night and always having trouble waking up in the morning. I even slammed one of those 5 hour energy drinks today for the first time and that didn’t even come close to helping. To be honest, those things taste like crap, and didn’t do anything but give me something awful of an after taste.
So I did a Google search on sleep deprivation, assuming that’s what it was, and then starting reading on sleep disorders. I came across this article on DSPS (Delayed Sleep Phase Syndrome). Here’s the first part of the article:
“Delayed sleep phase syndrome (DSPS) is a condition in which people have trouble timing their sleep around daily activities. Because their sleep is driven by their own internal clock, those with DSPS go to bed considerably later (generally in the early morning hours) and have an extremely difficult time waking up in the morning.” – Rest of the article can be found here
Basically everything in the above article describes my issues with sleeping to a T, and explains why I have such a hard time with being energized throughout any day. I can’t sleep until I absolutely force myself to, and for me I have a really hard time just falling asleep. For example if I lay down at ten at night, I will just sit there tossing and turning for hours before actually just knocking out.
I know that I should probably cut out caffeine before going to bed, and probably try and focus on sleeping better, but for some reason this is not that easy of change for me. It seems easy enough if you just think about, but habits are habits for a reason, and honestly I am not even sure if that will even help. I am so use to not sleeping that it’s almost natural for me to just live like this. . Obviously I know that I need to change some things in my habit areas I have come so accustomed to, but for a person who is borderline OCD with some things as I am, it’s hard to break out of habits.
This could also attribute to my “ADHD” that I seem to have a lot of and even more of lately, also my inability to focus on any one thing, and decision making has gone out the window as well. I know I have become irritated with smaller things more and more lately too.
There are some recommendations I found on how to correct this with milder cases, but I am thinking that I probably have a little more than just a mild case of this, as it’s been something that has plagued me since I can even remember.
Just found it interesting how they have a syndrome for almost anything these days. 50 years ago people would have just said stop being a woosy about it and suck it up. These days, no matter what it is, there’s something out there to reference back to. I love the internet, no matter how screwed up you are, how naïve, dumb, sick, or whatever you are, there’s an answer for it.
The one thing that I did finally found out by myself was I had to slow my brain down to actually fall asleep. Yes, I did say slow my brain down. Meaning I have a crap load of things blaring through my mind at any given time, before going to bed even. For example, I could be thinking about the days activities, the next days activities, bills, job, relationships, house, cars, my kid, dog, etc., all at the same time it seems like. So my trick to myself is almost like self meditation I suppose, slowly working those thoughts out of my head till I am actually able to fall asleep. I literally tell my own self to shut up already, go to bed. Unfortunately I haven’t learned on how to do this earlier. But it works most nights to at least get me some sleep.
Makes me wonder how many people actually have some weird things like this that most people probably don’t know about.
Anyways, so I’ll probably be sitting in my bed at 12:30am wondering if I’ll ever fall asleep again tonight, and then wake up at my usual 5:30am, um I mean 5:40am, or 5:50am, more like 6:10am. Yeah, you got to love the snooze button.
Thanks for reading.
-JW
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I did get to hangout with Rocky all day last Sunday, which I haven’t had much time to do. I took him to with me everywhere I went, and he even got to jump on a trampoline that day, he seems to like those a lot.
